Transcription
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All right, so I had my first session with Ryan yesterday, and it’s taken me a little bit of time because I have so many thoughts that all of my recordings keep turning into a 10 minute recording. So I’ve taken a couple of these, but this is the best one so far. Alright, so first thoughts. I’m amazed by everything that’s happened so far. The past couple of weeks have been crazy and yesterday just really blew it. It just absolutely changed everything. So I met Ryan a couple times, actually, we’ve matched a couple times and I was like, who is this guy who keeps trying to match me? And then I read his profile and it’s some boob reading and some sexual healing. I’m like, God, no, this guy’s just trying to get pictures. And hopefully no one’s met up with him.
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But then he said, I am not sure if I am doing what you need, but these are what I do, and if you’re interested, let me know. And I said, yeah, I’m actually kind of interested. And I don’t know what it was that said that, but something clearly came out and said that to him. And I did. We transferred phone numbers to each other so that he could send a couple people’s testimonies. And it was interesting to hear. My first thoughts were, okay, so if this guy is a scammer or anything like that, I’m going to hear it in these ladies’ voices. And I heard true emotions come out in some of these ladies recordings.
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So that’s the first thing I noticed. And I was like, alright, well I’m going to give this guy a shot because I don’t feel like he’s fake. And if he just wanted some boob pictures, then he wouldn’t be sending testimonies and all that kind of stuff. So I went ahead and sent a picture and he gave me this awesome reading and I was like, oh, wow, okay. That’s pretty impressive. For a first picture, my gut was telling me to give this guy a shot, so I did. So I scheduled an appointment and that happened yesterday. Within the week that I had to wait
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Or that I was waiting to have this appointment. I noticed that I started to have my life become a little bit more conscious and I started kind of seeing what I needed to be different. So unfortunately lately I’ve been having a lot of sexual issues. I’m very shut off, confidence issues, self-image issues, all of these things keep adding up to these appearance issues and confidence issues, and it’s affecting my life. It is 100%. And I noticed that the biggest role, the person who placed the best role in that was my ex. And I noticed that he’s been, we dated for about two and a half years, and I still kept him around even after everything has happened about two years after. And I’m still seeing him, but we’re not dating. So I totally told myself, okay, so there’s this man in my life. I’ve noticed that there’s a difference in me.
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I’m shut down, I’m closed off, I need a change. So I was like, what the heck? I’ll give this guy a chance. So when I went into my appointment yesterday and the whole car ride over, I just noticed I was trying to just get there because I was very shy and I was shutting down really fast. And I noticed that that’s not who I am. I’m a pretty outgoing, confident person when it comes to my job, but as far as someone talking about my sexual life or me as a person and getting to know me, I shut down immediately. That’s not who I want to be.
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And you can now already hear the emotion coming out. That’s not who I am as a person, that’s not me. And yesterday changed all of that. So I get to Ryan’s place and he was very comforting letting me see the place and kind of show me how things were working and where he set up. And it was just really fun to see. And I get into this room with him and I notice I immediately shut down. And one of the biggest things that I can now just look back and watch is I sat on the very end of this couch, closed off. Ryan was in the middle, kind of this couch in a chair across the way. And I just noticed I closed myself off immediately. I am crossing my arms, I’m crossing my feet, I’m closing off myself. I am uncomfortable on how I look on this couch because I’m a big girl.
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And that is the biggest thing for me is, oh my God, he’s not going to like who I am because I’m this big girl. But none of that mattered. That’s the point of the session is that none of that mattered. It mattered that I was who I was and that I needed that to come out. And so I’m sitting on this couch on the very end, and I start just talking to Ryan, and Ryan just starts talking to me. And we just go back and forth for a little bit and we hit a couple big questions and I start crying and I’m like, oh God, this is starting to be a little bit more real than I was thinking. And I noticed that I was opening up a lot more though, even though I don’t love how I look when I’m crying or anything like that.
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Ryan was okay with whatever was happening. So I started to feel a lot more comfortable. The second part of the session where the healing happened was definitely making me nervous, but I swallowed my pride, or I wouldn’t even call it pride, just all of my nervousness. And I was like, I need to do this because I’m here for a reason. And so when I got on that table and I started aligning my chakras, I noticed that there was change already from that because the first round was different than the second. And I was like, okay, this is just crazy.
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Something’s crying for no reason. And I realized it started hitting on my heart and my third eye that I just started just bawling my eyes out. And I was like, what is this? I’ve never had this happen before. And then I was like, okay. Oh shit, this is real. Something inside me is coming out in a way of crying and it needs to happen. So we continue onto our session, and because of my body image, of course I was very nervous in the very beginning and then kind of in the middle. But I started opening up to him and things were releasing, and it was amazing. I’ve never felt so much release in one session. And I noticed that things were changing when he started crying, even after the session, because who cries after a session? It’s gone and done for, but that’s not true.
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You cry after a session because you are so, I was so shocked on what was happening to me in my soul and my body, and it was just amazing. It was amazing feeling. And I think the biggest thing I noticed was after we were finished with the session, I got up and Ryan was saying, okay, get dressed and I’m going to go refreshen up and you take your time and I’ll come back. And as I was getting dressed, I felt different. I felt like all of a sudden this new person came out. And it was kind of weird. I was kind of stunned, to be honest. I was just standing there and I was like, who’s this? And I look at myself on my camera and I’m like, who is this person? And of course, immediately I send a video to my closest friend. I’m like, oh my God, I don’t know what just happened. She’s like, girl, you look different.
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So Ryan comes back into the room and he’s like, oh, hello. And I was like, hi. And he’s, you’re glowing. And I was like, I feel different. And he’s like, there you are. There is who you’re supposed to be. And it was amazing to feel that and have somebody else see that it really hit. It just really hit. And on the way home, I didn’t feel like I needed to cry. I was just too happy to have released this person that has been stuck inside. And I hope that any women, anybody who listens to this recording of me understands that you have to give Ryan a chance. It’s very normal nowadays to think that therapy’s bad or we don’t tie therapy with anything sexual because there’s so much bad out there in this world. But give Ryan a chance and let him see you for who you really are and work with you because it’s changed me. And yesterday I was okay with the fact that my ex needs to move on and I have blocked his number and
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I don’t feel lonely anymore. I feel confident and I feel like I’ve branched out to being somebody that I am meant to be. And it excites me because Ryan also opened up my eyes to I am young and I have such a life ahead of me that I have so many potentials to do with and there’s so much out there for me. And my ex made me see that it was over. And that’s why I think I held onto him for so long. And yeah, so that’s my experience and I hope that you give Ryan a chance. And I’m very excited to do more sessions with him to see what else I can heal and move on with in my life. And there’s no words to describe the amount of gratitude that I have for meeting this guy. He came into my life for a reason. So there’s that.