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(00:01):
Okay, I’m trying to get my thoughts together on our experience, our meeting. I guess I’ll start with the beginning. You definitely made me feel just really comfortable and I could just pretty much tell you anything and not feel judged. I felt really safe with you. The boob reading is definitely a great place to start because we had done one virtually first, and that’s when I kind of felt like it was not necessarily completely, it wasn’t sexual. It felt very clinical and really spot on with what you said. And then we redid that in your office and you kind of said the same things that I was a definite giver, a good mother, but lacked boundaries with relationships, especially romantic relationships, which is definitely true. I’m very codependent, which I’ve been healing from that for the last couple of years and really working hard on it.
(01:25):
And then I loved the tuning fork chakra reading that you did. I think that was a really nice experience. And again, I felt like you’ve found the places that I was maybe not connected or blocked in those areas, which was my throat and I believe my root chakra, and I just loved the feathering so much. I feel like everyone should experience that. I think that that’s really a great place to start even, and you’re with your partners and stuff. It just makes you feel really in tune with your body and heightens all your senses and just the light touching all over just feels so good. And it really is relaxing and calming and leads to a natural progression of being able to be open to being touched in your vagina and ready to release. I have a really hard time staying in my body and I think you kind of could figure that out. You would tell me to follow your hands and I would try to do that again. I would sometimes wander off and then I have to bring myself back.
(03:12):
I’m trying to think.
(03:15):
And then just allowing myself to be able to release is really hard for me. It feels like too much, too painful, so I push it away. I turn it away. And I was really shocked that you were even able to get me to overcome that, and I’ve never definitely ever thought I would be able to squirt or release in that way. And that was definitely just a different kind of release and I felt so many things that yesterday afterwards, and I definitely felt lighter and really good, and you made me feel beautiful and worthy, which is something else I really struggle with. And it was a really cool experience. I definitely think that I have more work to do. I want to be able to push through and just really let my body experience it without trying to resist or not allow myself to go there. And I always just feel guilt for a lot of different things. I feel guilty about everything in life, honestly. It’s just something that I struggle with. So I had feelings of guilt after I left you. I still had done something to maybe cross your boundaries, but I know you’ve assured me that wasn’t the case. I just hope that’s true. I never want to put you in a position you’re not comfortable with because I know my need to be desired and wanting to please you also,
(05:19):
It’s kind of a part of who I am and I don’t know if that’s a good thing or a bad thing. And so I have guilt about it and I don’t know if,
(05:35):
Yeah, I really wanted that with you and when you were touching me and just getting so close, and I just wanted you to use your tongue and I just kept thinking like you were going to and then you didn’t. But I still felt so good. And then when you rolled me over and made me squirt and choked me, I just wanted to please you and I hope that was okay. But overall, I feel like this is a really good beginning and I just want to get to a place where I feel this so good about myself and comfortable just really letting go with whoever I allow to touch me. Anyways, I hope that’s what you were wanting from me. I don’t know. I’m still, like I said, I still am kind of processing things, but I’m just really happy that I met you.